饮恨吞声 [
yǐn hèn tūn shēng]
nurse a grievance and gulp down one's sobs
endure sufferings and dare not show them openly
harbour hatred in the heart
- 也许到临终“回光返照”的时候,才感到悔惭,心有遗憾,可是已追悔莫及,只好饮恨吞声百死。
Maybe until you come to a close you will become regretted, while everything can never return back, you can do nothing but accept the reality and suffer the grievance.